- no alcohol & no computer games.
- exercise at least 4 times a week, strive for 6 (Monday - Saturday)
- spend at least 1/2 hour daily in lectio divina, journalling whatever reflections come out of it
- get out of my comfort zone with this job hunt. Today, that means making phone calls for "information interviews".
- one weekday Mass per week, let's say Wednesdays since we started today
- Reach out to people ... say, Saturday - Thursday, write or call at least one friend or relative per day. Fridays can be my hermit days.
I'm tired of being a child; tired of giving up and retreating into distraction when things get challenging. This time, I will FAIL. Ha ha, no, I am serious. I am determined to fail! I am determined to TRY something, DO something, stretch my boundaries, go beyond what I already know how to do. I am determined to do what I don't know how to do, what I don't know that I can do, what is hard enough to not get right on the first try. To fail, because how else can I grow? How else can I learn something new, if I'm not willing to go into something I don't already know? I have to look stupid, or I'm not learning. I have to be a klutz, or I'm not training. I have to be a fat couch potato huffing and puffing and sweating, or I am not going to get fit and strong and sleek. I have to get turned down, or else I'm not asking enough. If I'm not willing to crash and burn, I'm not taking much of a leap of faith.
Eleanor Roosevelt said: "Do one thing every day that scares you". So underlying all my little Lenten disciplines and going beyond them, that is my resolution. It's what conversatio mora means to me: never stop growing.